zondag 26 december 2010

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I thought it was over.



I thought I was done.


But it was then when I realized it's never over, it's never done.


I looked to my right, absentmindly,


there were so many people but I only saw you.


Your uncontrolled movement,


your messy hair..


I used to love that, now it only bothered me.


Because I know it's now loved by someone else.


I couldn't look away, I felt dizzy.


My heart was beating way too fast,


my breath on the other hand stopped.


I was angry, though not nearly as much as I shoud have been.


I was hurt, too much..


I was eager, while I shouldnt.


Eager to just walk by, flip my hair back, look you in the eyes and say nothing.


Just to see if you'd notice.


Just to see if you fucking had the guts to apologize.


You'll never find anyone like me ever again.


I could have ruined your life like you ruined mine, but I didn't!


I did nothing..


Maybe I should have done something,


something that prevented you from doing nothing..


It's not too late, it's never too late,


this won't heal on it's own.


I know what they think of me,


what they think of this.


But I don't care.


Let them live their easy lives,


where the only problem they have are difficult parents,


what their hair looks like and school grades..


I'm past that now.


But look me in the face and tell me it doesn't look good on me.


Cause you know that, is a lie.

zaterdag 11 december 2010

Winterkou

Klaar voor de winter.
Wanneer de koude lucht mn longen instroomt, eindelijk lucht.
En de kille wind verhalen met zich meebrengt, Verteld in een zucht.
Het vallen van vlokken sneeuw, ik van ze met mijn tong.
Want in dit koude tijdperk voel ik me weer even jong.
Ik ben geen zomermens, geen hitte voor mij.
Kou is best te doen, chocolademelk erbij.
Duister overheerst maar is niets om bang voor te zijn.
Want overal brand licht, en dus zal je veilig zijn...

Nature calls

Beyond the trees you'll see the forest.
In all his glory and mistery.
Learn to see what's inside that world.
Just like me.
It's natures choice to let things die,
Let them consume slowely,
And melt them to the ground,
Where they perfectly fit in.

Hartenbreker

Een zucht verwart de ijzige stilte.
Een traan vervaagt jou beeld van mij.
Een blik en jou binnenste bevriest.
Je weet het, ik keer niet meer terug.
Iedere aanraking, de pijn is ondraaglijk.
Een kleine scheur dwars door jouw ziel.
Nooit meer dezelfde.
Want ik maakte jou tot wat je bent.
Een houvast, maar niet meer.
En pas nu besef je, je kunt niet zonder me.
Het is te laat, ik breek je.